Still Alive

Yep, I'm still around...sorta. :)

I've just been lazy when it comes to blogging! :( I suck. I've been trying to keep up with swagbucks, irazoo, superpoints etc., and trying to read the bazillion blogs I subscribe to, and I've neglected my very own blog. Sorry. I'm pretty boring anyways, not like you are missing anything really exciting...

I did go to my dental appointment. It was tough. I had the craps days in advance I was so stressed over it. As soon as I walked in the door and sat down in the waiting room I lost it. I got all teary, I'm such a BIG BABY! I don't know why my fear is so bad, but it is. I got lots of x-rays taken that day, and talked to the dentist about the dentures. Just for the record, I do NOT have a BIG MOUTH. :) The ladies that took the x-rays said they had to use the smallest thingy for my mouth because it was so tiny. I told them that was the first time I ever heard that one! LOL. Most tell me I have a big mouth. Anyways.. I'm going to get all my teeth taken out at once, and I hope and pray the valium, and the gas calm me down enough to get through it. I'm not looking forward to the oodles of shots of novicaine, and the sights/sounds/smells of the dental visit that day. I would really love to be knocked out for the process, but that costs a lot more. I'm sure I'll have some pain for a few days at least. I just pray everything goes smoothly. I will be without teeth for a while, not looking forward to that, I think I'll become a hermit for awhile so no one sees me toothless. I'm thinking of taking a "Hello my name is...GUMBY" sticker with me the day I get my teeth yanked, then as soon as they are all out I'll slap that on me LOL. I have an appointment for Sept. 26th for the teeth removal...please say prayers for me that morning and keep me in your thoughts! I'm going to try to take some before pics not only of my crappy teeth, but of my fat body too... and hopefully when I get my pretty new teeth I'll have a less fat body to go with them, and we can compare before & after pics...

I'm already super nervous about that appointment on the 26th. I'm even dreaming about the dentist, and not really in a good way LOL. Last night I dreamt that I took Jilly for her appt., the dentist yelled at me because her teeth were so bad, then yelled at me that I owed him $150. Then he told me that I was trying to use my big boobs to get a discount! I was so mad in the dream that he said that, because I wasn't using them. Sure I had boobs, but they are attached to me, its not like I can leave them at home, and in my dream I was not flaunting them in any way to where he'd have thought that. It really upset me. I was waiting in my van for the receptionist to come out so I could talk to her (she is a friend of my moms) and the dentist came out and I wanted to run him over! Nice dream eh?

August 23rd was Jilly's 11th birthday, and also her first day of 6th grade. It was a half day of school, so after she had a few friends over for cake. Three 11 yr old girls...oh my, they acted so goofy and drove me up the wall lol.



Jilly had a nice day, despite having to go to school that day.

The weekend after Jilly's birthday, we took the girls to a place in Yorkville called Hoppers. Its an indoor place that has a bunch of bouncehouse things, and a velcro wall. They had a blast. We were there for several hours.






We look forward to returning. Even parents could go on the stuff, it was fun. Bill took some pics of me, but I look like a big fat pig with a broken tooth and it was disgusting, so I'll be posting no pics of me there!

Last weekend we went to the fair down the street from our house. Our town puts on a pretty pathetic fair.. Its rather sad. I wish they'd take lessons from the Sandwich Fair. I did take a few pics of our fair, but nothing really special, so I won't bore you with those. This week was the Sandwich Fair, and again we went for wristband day. We got there around 10:30 a.m. and left at about 7:20 p.m.! The girls & Bill got wristbands so they could ride as many rides as they wanted. I didn't get one because I get sick on nearly everything! I was the watcher of the stroller and the picture taker for the day. Last year Bree LOVED the giant slide and merry-go-round. This year she only went on the slide about 5 times. She did try a few other rides but didn't like them. First it was the bee ride, Kels rode with her. She was ok when it started out, but then the bee went up in the air, and Bree did NOT like that at all. Later she tried the teacup ride...which is a smaller version of the teapots at Disney sorta. She was excited but nervous to try it. Once the ride started I guess the cup kinda tilts a bit and it freaked her out, Jilly ended up hugging and consoling her the rest of the ride. Bree did still enjoy the merry-go-round (which she calls the miracleround lol) and she rode it with Bill and the girls several times, she does not like riding on the horses on it though, she must ride on the bench or she freaks out. Kels rode a few rides with Bree & Jilly then went off on her own for the rest of the day. Jilly rode a few rides, her favorite was the hang-glider one. My favorite thing of the day was a turtle funnelcake.. which is funnel cake, powdered sugar, a ton of whipped cream and caramel & fudge drizzled over the top.











The second to last pic is Jilly in an inflatable wheel thing, she was like a hamster lol. The last one is her chowing on a deep fried pickle on a stick... Everythings good on a stick right? She loves pickles and wanted another!

Yesterday Bill & I went and got some much needed haircuts! My hair is short again and it feels great!

I think that is all for now. I'll try to keep up a little better with my blog...so my mom can stop bugging me about it LOL (kidding mom).

Toodles!

SOOC Saturday

I enjoyed last weeks meme of SOOC (straight out of the camera) Saturday, so I thought I'd join in again. It means I put up a picture I took that is straight out of the camera, no editing done to it.

This meme is put on by Marvelous Mommy. Please visit her site and enjoy her pics, and those that have linked up to this meme.

I couldn't pick which ONE of these bubble pics I took, so I'm posting both. Bubbles are cool.

There ya go, my SOOC pics. Not perfect, but still cool.

While I was looking for these pics I came across some other pics that I like and some old videos that had me laughing. Bree, Kels & I ended up watching a bunch together.

In the same folder as the bubble pics I came across this one of Jilly it too is SOOC I believe, might have cropped it I don't remember, but I didn't change the pic in any other way. Its one of my gazillion favorites...


I like her blue eyes, and her blonde hair, and the freckles on her nose.

Oh, and then there is this one of Bree covered in chocolate, and splashing in our ugly gold bathtub...so cute



She's such a nutbutt.

Ok, going to stop looking at photos now or I'll be posting all my favorites!

Have a great weekend!
Toodles!

Big Changes Coming Soon

I wasn't sure how to title this post.

I thought about "Dream coming true". Or, "I love my mommy" :) . Or, "Out with the old in with the new" or "I'm full of crap"... and a few other things.

I got a shocking surprise from my mom earlier this week. I had to pick my jaw up off the floor when she told me the news.

My first thought was 'oh my God, for real?' I was very excited, for it was something I've been wanting to get done for years now. My second thought was 'OH SHIT! I have to go to a dentist!'. Since then I've been spending my time doing a happy dance, and sitting on the shitter because I have a nervous stomach and its in knots...(I know, TMI, but its the truth).

You are probably wondering what I'm talking about...

My mom has told me she is going to pay what insurance will not for me to be able to get my teeth pulled and dentures! If you've followed my blog for a while now (or if you know me in real life) you know that I am terrified of the dentist. Between my fear of the dentist, and years of no dental insurance/money, I haven't been to the dentist since I was in high school. Yes, thats a LONG TIME.

I am totally freaked out about going. My appointment to talk to the dentist is Monday morning, and I'll know more after that. I'm so scared my stomach is a mess and my booty is sore LOL. But I'm also excited in a way too.

I'm really embarrassed and ashamed to have to open my mouth to them on Monday, and allow them to see the horrible state of my teeth. I've mentioned before they are in a bad way and I'm not kidding. Most of my teeth are broken, even a front one is broken in half from top to bottom only half of it remains...I look like a hillbilly.

I'm excited that soon I will get rid of these yucky teeth, and get some new ones, ones I can eat easier with, and ones I can SMILE with! I will be able to smile, and maybe even want my picture taken once in a while! You don't know what its like trying not to smile, or letting people see you smile, for fear they'll be freaked out by my appearance.

Another good thing that I'm excited about is I might be able to shed a few pounds during this teeth removal process. I won't be able to eat much for a while probably, that is a GOOD THING. Maybe I'll get thinner, and be smiling more too, and I'll start to feel better about myself, and have more energy.

So as I said, there are some big changes coming soon. Please keep me in your prayers & thoughts for these things:
*That I can get through my appointments without passing out or something.
*That the dentist isn't freaked out and making me feel worse about the way my teeth look and the way I feel about them.
*That I can get this done quickly!
*That the tooth removal goes smoothly, no complications and healing is quick.
*That the dentures feel good and LOOK GOOD.
*That I lose a LOT of weight :)

Please give a big shout out to my Mom. If it wasn't for her generosity I'd not be getting this done! I love you mom, thanks so much, you will get my first pretty smile. :)

Toodles!

Hopscotch

Bree wanted to play hopscotch today.

I didn't want to go outside to do it because it was hot...and I'm fat...and hot and fat don't mix well LOL.

So we compromised.

We did hopscotch INSIDE.

Masking tape to the rescue!






Even Kelsey got into the fun when she got home from school.

Now seems like every time we go down the hall we do the hopscotch LOL.

It's fun to watch the kids doing it.

Scary watching ME do it...I'm big, and fat, and have old lady saggy boobs....if I keep hopscotching I might knock myself out with my boobs.

Go get your masking tape...and get to hopscotching too!

Toodles!

She's BACK!

Jilly is HOME from Norway! She was supposed to be home in the middle of the night on Sunday/Monday, but their last flight got cancelled! I wasn't pleased, I wanted my Jilly home. She finally made it home early Monday afternoon. I was super happy to see her, and so was Bree!

I would post a picture of her, but I haven't had a chance to get any! She/we have been busy all week. Jilly's dad is in town until tomorrow, so Jilly's trying to get as much time in with him as possible. She's been gone pretty much from the time she gets up each day until past bedtime. I'd like time with her too, but right now her time with her dad is more important because soon he'll be gone, so I'm letting her have as much as possible. She was home long enough to get her school physical on Tuesday, and her dentist appointment on Wednesday.

Tomorrow is going to be a sad day for Jilly I'm sure when she says good-bye to her daddy again. Please keep her in your thoughts and him too, I know its just as hard on him.

Toodles!

SOOC (Straight out of camera)

I saw that Dear Dazee my buddy joined in this meme, so I thought I'd jump on the boat too. I like this one, its posting a picture straight out of the camera, no edits. I'm not a professional photographer nor do I edit much so this is up my alley.

The meme is from Marvelous Mommy, please click the buttons below to check her out along with those that linked up to her meme.







Here is my entry. This was taken back in October, on the way home from Somonauk.




Toodles!

Worried about what others think..

I need a haircut. I haven't gotten one in months. I put it off for a while because money was tight. Then I worried that I'd go to get it cut and there would be a flea in my hair (dog & cats had fleas bad) and it would freak out the hairstylist and embarrass me... My hair is getting pretty unmanageable now, and I'm getting tired of having to put it in barretts or headbands (which hurt my head! I must have a big head...). I'm at a point where I NEED something done to it, I just don't know for sure what.

Yesterday I was surfing the web, in search of hairstyles... I came across something that caught my eye. At first glance, I thought 'I like it, but to risky for me.' I kept looking for other styles, and found a few ok ones, but my mind kept going back to the risky one. The more I looked at it the more I liked it. Maybe the fact that its on a model that isn't a twig helped pull me in. Maybe its the fact that it is a SHORT & EASY style that pulled me in... I like short hair, I like it on me, and I like the easy styling in the morningss... My husband isn't the biggest fan of short hair though.. But, who is going to wear it, him or me? Most of his time is spent working/sleeping/or on his computer, so its not like he'd be seeing much of me either LOL. But I do still worry... about what people would think...

So, my problem is... Do it because I like it, and pray it would look ok on me? Or don't do it, because others might not like it?

HERE is the style. I might (if I get it) have them go a tad shorter by the eye, for I hate stuff in my eyes. It is also making me think about wanting to get my ears repierced...I haven't worn earrings in probably about 10 yrs!

Nervously considering...
Toodles!