I wasn't sure how to title this post.
I thought about "Dream coming true". Or, "I love my mommy" :) . Or, "Out with the old in with the new" or "I'm full of crap"... and a few other things.
I got a shocking surprise from my mom earlier this week. I had to pick my jaw up off the floor when she told me the news.
My first thought was 'oh my God, for real?' I was very excited, for it was something I've been wanting to get done for years now. My second thought was 'OH SHIT! I have to go to a dentist!'. Since then I've been spending my time doing a happy dance, and sitting on the shitter because I have a nervous stomach and its in knots...(I know, TMI, but its the truth).
You are probably wondering what I'm talking about...
My mom has told me she is going to pay what insurance will not for me to be able to get my teeth pulled and dentures! If you've followed my blog for a while now (or if you know me in real life) you know that I am terrified of the dentist. Between my fear of the dentist, and years of no dental insurance/money, I haven't been to the dentist since I was in high school. Yes, thats a LONG TIME.
I am totally freaked out about going. My appointment to talk to the dentist is Monday morning, and I'll know more after that. I'm so scared my stomach is a mess and my booty is sore LOL. But I'm also excited in a way too.
I'm really embarrassed and ashamed to have to open my mouth to them on Monday, and allow them to see the horrible state of my teeth. I've mentioned before they are in a bad way and I'm not kidding. Most of my teeth are broken, even a front one is broken in half from top to bottom only half of it remains...I look like a hillbilly.
I'm excited that soon I will get rid of these yucky teeth, and get some new ones, ones I can eat easier with, and ones I can SMILE with! I will be able to smile, and maybe even want my picture taken once in a while! You don't know what its like trying not to smile, or letting people see you smile, for fear they'll be freaked out by my appearance.
Another good thing that I'm excited about is I might be able to shed a few pounds during this teeth removal process. I won't be able to eat much for a while probably, that is a GOOD THING. Maybe I'll get thinner, and be smiling more too, and I'll start to feel better about myself, and have more energy.
So as I said, there are some big changes coming soon. Please keep me in your prayers & thoughts for these things:
*That I can get through my appointments without passing out or something.
*That the dentist isn't freaked out and making me feel worse about the way my teeth look and the way I feel about them.
*That I can get this done quickly!
*That the tooth removal goes smoothly, no complications and healing is quick.
*That the dentures feel good and LOOK GOOD.
*That I lose a LOT of weight :)
Please give a big shout out to my Mom. If it wasn't for her generosity I'd not be getting this done! I love you mom, thanks so much, you will get my first pretty smile. :)