Discouraged

Dieting is a roller coaster ride.

Have I ever mentioned I don't like roller coasters? Nor do I like dieting.

Did you know that if you weigh at different times of day your weight can vary by a few pounds? That is just wrong... I need to try not to get to discouraged when I step on that stupid wii board and see a gain. Especially when I didn't weigh in around my usual time.

Today it said I gained 2 lbs. After I worked out big time yesterday. I was really disappointed and discouraged. Maybe if I weighed in at my usual time it might not say such a gain, but still...hard to not get down after seeing a gain when I worked so hard!

I've been logging my foods on My Fitness Pal. It keeps track of your calorie intake, tells you what your goal should be etc.. You also log in your exercise time. Did you know that if you work off such and such calories you are supposed to eat back those calories? I don't quite understand it all but that is what you are supposed to do. I've logged my food and exercising time, and it tells me how much calories I've earned back by exercising, and I need to keep my calorie intake within my goal plus those calories I worked off. I've been doing that, and I've been under my calories by a bit each day for the most part, but it doesn't seem to be helping me lose. I'm wondering if that eat back your calories stuff is a bunch of BS. I was doing better before I started following that plan.

I'm just frustrated. I want the weight to come off faster. When I worked so hard yesterday and made big progress by JOGGING for more then 30 seconds I was so proud of myself. I had walked 5, jogged 5, walked 5, jogged 8, walked 5, jogged 5... that was major progress for me. Before I'd walk mostly, do intervals of jogging for 30 seconds at a time here and there but that was it. I was so excited yesterday. I had been pissed off by some things so I used that aggression in my work out and I did good. I was sure I'd have seen a loss when I got on the wii today, but I didn't. All I got out of it was a sore body, and a foot that hurts like hell.

After about a year of being mostly pain free in my feet (heel spurs and stuff), yesterday's jogging ruined that and I've been hurting ever since. Icing my heel right now as we speak and praying my Aleve will kick in soon, the others I've taken since yesterday haven't really touched it. Blah.

I know I could do better. I could totally cut out all junk, instead of just cutting back a lot. But I don't want to be totally miserable, for if I am, I'll totally blow all this diet crap. So I am still treating myself to a coke now and then, and a splurge day here and there. I just wish with all the working out and changes I have made I'd see more progress.

I could really go for some comforting chocolate right now... Hmmm where did Bill hide the caramel kisses?

Toodles!