Freak Show

I do not like an audience when I work out.

I have low self esteem. I do not want to others seeing me struggle.

I'm not good at exercising.

I breathe heavy.

I sweat.

My fat jiggles.

I look gross, and feel gross.

I do not want people watching me during this time.

Leave me alone. Go away. Let me exercise in peace.

I have a lot of jokesters around here too. They like to comment on me as I work out.

They also cause a lot of distraction to me.

Is it to much to ask for an hour and a half a day alone, to work out and better myself?

My family knows that I don't like an audience...yet they don't seem to give a crap.

This morning I went down to work out alone. Everyone was busy upstairs.

As soon as I get into my work out, first comes Kels, then Jilly, then Bree, then Bill...

So I finished where I was at, and went upstairs.

Up comes the girls...

I sneak into my room to do some exercise there, I shut the door....

First Bill comes in. Then Jilly...

UGH.

What am I? A freak show? Lets all watch the funny looking jiggly fat chick work out.

Thats what I feel like...a freak show.

Why can't they leave me alone? Do they not want me to succeed?

I'm trying really really hard. Can't they cut me some slack?

I'm frustrated.

I'm not giving up though...I'll sneak in work outs here and there as I can on the weekends. When they go back to work/school I'll go back to the way I do during the week... I just wish they'd cooperate a little more and help me out, encourage me... Oh well.

QOTD: Are you comfortable working out in front of others?

Toodles!