I have a wish. It will probably sound crazy (and gross to some). My wish is that there would be a dentist somewhere that would take pity on me, and offer his/her services for free...to YANK OUT ALL MY TEETH and give dentures. My teeth are falling apart, most of them are broken in some way. They are ugly as hell. And lately, they are painful. I have no dental insurance, and no money to spend on getting them fixed without it, so I'm kind of screwed. Not to mention the fact that I am terrified of the dentist.
This will probably disgust you, to learn this little tidbit about me...I have not been to a dentist since I was in High School...I'm now 41 yrs old. At first I didn't go because I was without insurance. Then when I got some, I didn't go because I was terrified, and they were not hurting, and not as ugly at the time, so I didn't feel the need to go...mistake. Then it got to where I didn't have insurance again, and now I'm miserable. I'd like a day with no teeth pain. I'd like to be able to eat things and not worry about breaking teeth, or how I can chew the food. I'd like to SMILE for pictures. I'd like to smile and laugh when talking to people without worrying if they'll see my ugly teeth. I think I'd have so much more confidence if I had a pretty smile, I'd feel so much better about myself. It might even motivate me to shed some of the fat I have, so my body matches my mouth. Oh well...its just a dream. I highly doubt any dentist will want to grant me my wish, without payment. I can dream can't I?
I should take pictures of my teeth to show you all...but, that would just gross you out, and totally embarrass me...so I'll not do so. But picture this...brown spots, cavities, broken teeth, some just small pieces of teeth at the gumline. My top front tooth is half chiped off the side, and the rest is going to come soon I think. My bottom front teeth are decaying at the base, and part has cracked today, so its just a matter of time when things will get worse... Its bad people, seriously.
I guess I didn't take good enough care of them when I was younger. Even though I brush daily, more then once...it hasn't helped. It makes me sad, depressed, and ugly. I wish I could turn back time and have a re-do with my teeth.
If I ever do get to a dentist, they are going to literally crap themselves when they see how disgusting my mouth is. I'm going to feel so embarrassed, and want to crawl in a hole.
I just want to be put to sleep, teeth yanked, dentures in, to feel pretty and smile again. Is that to much to ask for? Yes. It is.
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